Why I need to hypnotize myself

I don't have long to write. My goal is to get to the store this morning, but I wanted to share what we did all day yesterday.

Suzi had been having frequent urination urges, on and off, mostly at night, for a few days. We encouraged her to drink lots of water, but that only gets you so far with a three-year-old. No fever, no pain (that she would tell us about), but those oh-so-convincing middle of the night HAFTA PEEPEES had me worried. Monday night she had five or so in half an hour and there was usually a little pee there when she went. It seemed like she must have the beginnings of a UTI. I did a little research and came to the conclusion that I didn't feel comfortable waiting it out and letting it get worse. Had it been me, I may have tried cranberry capsules and lots of water, among other things, but there was no way she would do any of that.

So we took her to the doctor, and he looked at her pee and said it looked fine except for trace amounts of blood, which could be normal--or not. And then he pointed out that, really, it was only happening at night? When she was in her own room? And I felt kind of like an idiot because I'd said no, no, my child wouldn't do that, she really does have to pee. I can tell. But the pieces started to fall together and make sense. Ivey is developing her attention-getting skills. We've been really busy lately. There's a little brother on the way. When she has to pee, we drop what we're doing and take her no matter what time it is.

And then Jordan brought up the fact that one of his kidneys is half the size of the other one and only does 5% of the work (which we discovered after he tried to donate a kidney to a friend), and his grandmother has a similar issue. That's when we got sent for a kidney ultrasound. Which she didn't like, and was expensive. The whole day was quite expensive, actually, and stressful. I hesitated to even dredge the whole thing up again by blogging about it.

But really, we are happy because the ultrasound looked okay (although we will still call our doctor to see what he says) and Suzi is probably fine. Jordan said he didn't even care about the money; after all, it comes and goes. I told him, well, mostly it goes. But you're right. So Suzi probably just needs a little more attention. It's a difficult thing to face because we really do try to do everything right. It's not like Jordan and I have tons of time to ourselves that we could be spending with our kids.

We barely have time to do our Hypnobabies, especially the ones that are best done at a time when you're unlikely to fall asleep. Ha. Ha. Ha. Either getting up at 6 AM or waiting until the kids are in bed after 8:00 at night, that is a probability. Even if you're not lying on the couch trying to hypnotize yourself. I could do the ones that don't require Jordan to read whenever he gets home from work, but we don't get much time together as it is, and anyway, I would hear intermittent screeching from downstairs.

We did finally get to do the script last night, though, and I didn't fall asleep. I think it's going to be easier for me to stay awake when it's Jordan reading and not the lady on the CD. I have to be honest, some of those phrases sounded really funny coming out of his mouth and almost made me want to giggle. But he did a great job taking it seriously and I felt a lot better afterwards. It's like I still remembered all the crap that had happened, but it helped me let it go and relax. I was absolutely right that this class is perfect for me because I get so wound up over things. It's going to be great during this pregnancy and way beyond the birth, and I'm glad we're doing it. I'd highly recommend it to other high-strung mamas.

Now I'm off to look up recipes and do a little grocery shopping. Hoping to have fun with my girls at the grocery store and then come home and cook something with Suzi. Maybe she will like that.