So far today

Mama Susie and Robert meeting for the first time on Sunday

Handled a major newborn poop blowout. It was while his diaper was off, during a change. This is my third child and I've never seen a kid get this kind of distance with a BM. He got it in my hair but thankfully my face was out of the way. Had to clean up our bassinet/changing station.

Broke up at least ten sisterly disagreements including hair-pulling, pushing, hitting, baby doll custody battles and crying. Sigh. Is there a right way to do this? Because I have no idea what it might be.

Stepped on at least one sharp toy.

Scrubbed Jordan's dirty dishes from making buffalo wings but he got up with Robert this morning while I slept so I'm not really all that irritated.

Finished at least three loads of laundry and started washing diapers.

Straightened up enough so that we can at least walk through here.

Watched Ivey pour her sippy cup water into plastic teacups and use it to wash her baby doll and decided I couldn't come up with a good enough reason to stop her, especially when she's having such a good time.

Nursed a baby boy and held him and loved him and

Typed this post one-handed. I am getting pretty good at this.

It's been kind of a rough morning, but also good. I got a lot done even though I'm not nearly finished. In a little while we're going over to my parents' house to spend time with my grandma. I'm calling it a day.

TTFN

It's been a while, so I thought I'd explain. I don't have anything nice to say anymore. Not right now. It's been a bad day, but these words have been in my head for weeks now and are finally coming out.

My life is a lot of screaming--the baby at me, and me at the kids, and inside, at myself. Right now I am typing this left-handed so I can hold and nurse the baby and not get screamed at.

Some of my friends, one in particular, blog about finding that ever-elusive village. Apparently there are women in this dream village who will hold your baby for one freaking second while you pee, for instance, or make dinner, or work on a community project. Everyone shares and works together. Sounds lovely, but in my neck of the woods, I've noticed that if people are working together or sharing and it's not charity, people think it's inadvisable and weird and unhealthy.

Most days I sit at home, totally alone but never alone all at once. Nobody to talk to or drink coffee with, but always, always, ALWAYS a baby. 24 hours a day. One thing I am deeply grateful for is that she is physically unable to breastfeed and scream at the same time. I nurse her to sleep, nurse her in my sleep, wake up still nursing her and sometimes get screamed at when I pop her off to run to the bathroom. Running, stumbling, begging her not to wake up Suzi.

I get emails from old friends asking what I've been up to other than taking care of the girls and I just want to laugh, or cry, because that's basically all there is. There are no more hours to be had in a day. I only have two hands and at least one of them is holding a baby most of the time. When I put her down and she doesn't screech like a banshee there's lunch to make, a table to clear, dishes to wash, laundry to fold, and even if I spend every single spare moment doing those things, it will still look like I did nothing at all. It's pointless.

Sometimes I do go places, and sometimes it's fun. It's just that getting the girls dressed and clean and wrangled into their car seats involves a lengthy battle and so much screaming from Ivey that I think my ears might bleed. Nothing happens easily or quietly or at a leisurely pace. The other day we went shopping with my mom and Suzi pitched several embarrassing fits while we were out. All I could think was crap. Hell will probably freeze over before she wants to go shopping with the three of us again. I go to babywearing meetings sometimes, but at the last one Suzi whined and argued with the other kids and almost wet her pants and after all that we finally left early, without saying goodbye to anyone, totally defeated. Group meetings can be hard anyway because it's tough following one conversation out of five going on while simultaneously and endlessly saying don't Suzi STOP Suzi can't you share no that's not yours don't take the baby's toys and don't push do you have to pee come here DON'T no stop stop stop. And then Suzi gives me a break for a minute and the baby cries. Shopping trips and other outings are a parade of car seat buckling and unbuckling, awkward diaper changes, and getting baby situated in a carrier. People without two kids don't understand that I can't help that everything is so slow. And if I do happen to go out and everything goes well, and a good time is had by all, I come home and see the state of the house and probably wish I'd stayed home and cleaned instead.

I love to make things, but I so rarely get to anymore. I completely stopped making my clay nursing mamas. One day I was working on making something new and different, but Ivey was crying to be held. I ended up stashing the project in a box, telling myself I'd come back to it later. "Later" still hasn't come and now the clay is all dried out and sad and ruined. People think I've gotten bored with it but really it's so much harder to start something and have to stop after five minutes that I just don't start.

Earlier today, right after I got out of the shower, Ivey was crying to be picked up and I started crying too. Crying for just a couple minutes to dry my hair and throw on an outfit. Suzi ran off and came back with a tiny wadded up piece of toilet paper in her warm little fist and handed it to me. "What's this?" I asked. "You wipe your tears," she replied. Sweet little girl. Suzi is at my parents' house right now, but Ivey and I are still sitting here.

Take all this and top it off with a heaping spoonful of guilt. Because some people do this with twins, and do it better. Some people do it with no husband, or with a debilitating condition, and some people wish they were doing this but are unable to have kids. I have what should be a perfect, beautiful life, but it's not. It's a frustrating, jumbled up mess I can't seem to straighten out.

And I just can't think of anything worth writing about, and even if I could I don't have time, and typing one-handed really screws up my flow of ideas. I'll keep posting pictures of the girls, probably, and there may be a stray paragraph or two, but gone are the days when I posted more than once a week. Maybe one day Ivey will be like "bye Mama, I'm going to play with Suzi now!" But that is not today. Tomorrow doesn't look good either. Just thought you should know.

Love,

Jenny

P.S. Sorry if I sound like a jerk. I shouldn't blog while I'm hungry.

Noah the Gnome

Today I hopped over several piles of laundry and other junk, made it to the dining room table with the girls, and had craft time. If I wait until after cleaning is done, all I ever get to do is clean--and that's depressing! Ivey was so accommodating, watching us from her bouncy seat. Suzi drew pictures and stuffed gnome hats with me, and we ended up finishing two gnomes. We already made one at our parent-tot group. Here you see Noah, Lil Buddy, and Prince Phillip. Yup, Suzi named them all. She loves the gnomes almost as much as I do. They're just so cute!

And yesterday at our Morning Glory parent-tot group we did wet felting. It was so much easier than I expected, and fun! One of my favorite parts was the sheepy scent of the wet wool. I love the smell of farm animals. Yeah, I'm a little weird! I ended up making this ball for Suzi, but she hasn't gotten to play with it yet because I only just pulled it out of the dryer (I tied it in a sock and threw it in with a couple of loads). This is a craft a child could easily do. Suzi tried it in our class, but didn't finish a ball. I definitely want to order some wool batting and roving to do it at home with her.

Another thing I learned yesterday? While we finished up our wet felting, Miss Ashley was playing with the kids and sang a little song about a rooster living on a hill. At the end of the song the kids had to guess if the "rooster" (just about any small object will work) was in her top (upstairs) or bottom (downstairs) hand. It's kind of hard to explain, but Suzi loved it. She was practically jumping up and down and saying "do it again, Miss Ashley!" I paid close attention and now we do it at home.

At least partly thanks to our class, we have been doing more creative activities and watching fewer movies during the day. Suzi is asking to watch movies less and less, and we can often go all day without turning the TV on. She is filling her days with painting, drawing, creative play, and books, with less and less direction from me. I'm looking forward to getting outside a lot more when the weather gets warmer!

We've been reading/talking about rhythm; mostly daily rhythm, but seasonal as well. I know this is something that needs improvement at our house! Long before we started the class we noticed how much better Suzi felt after a regular early bedtime and an afternoon nap, and we do have a pre-sleep routine she looks forward to. Mealtimes are not so great, though. Although I'm getting better, I'm not the best cook and sometimes, especially with a baby, it's easier to not have a formal sit-down meal at the table. In my imagination, I have a tidy little dining room and a table set with flowers and candles. At 7:00, 12:30 and 6:30 I put breakfast, lunch and dinner on the table in a relaxed, unhurried manner. Everything is planned ahead and done at the right time and we pray and Ivey doesn't cry. Sounds nice, doesn't it? Is this what all of you do every time? Sometimes I think everyone else but me has a neat, organized life. I'm hoping most of them just clean right before I come over. Anyway, definitely room for improvement!

Taking Suzi to school... well, sort of

As I've said before, I plan to homeschool. It's a little overwhelming though, especially as everyone else's kids seem to be starting preschool. Suzi is my first child so I honestly haven't a clue (yet) what I am doing. This is why I was so happy to read this on Julie's blog. A mom in our area, teaching a small group of children between one and 3.5 years and their mamas at the same time. Exactly what I needed! We've been to two meetings so far. It's totally worth the somewhat long (~45 min) drive.

The day begins with a short nature walk and the children are encouraged to pick up things to place on the nature table in the classroom. Picking up rocks and things while on a walk is Suzi's specialty. Then we go in to have circle time and sing songs. The first time, Suzi was enchanted by the lambskin rug and lay in the floor rolling in it during most of circle time. The second time she participated a bit more. Ashley is cool with kids electing not to participate, but encourages the moms to take part because at this age, it's the best way to teach our kids.

My favorite part is the (adult) craft time. She teaches us to make things that will benefit our children in learning and creative play. Last week we did a finger-knitting project. The end product was a long, soft rope which can be used as play horse reins or any number of other things. I finished it at home and Suzi wanted to be a horse when I was done. She galloped around the house for at least 20 minutes, with Jordan following behind her. Then she let Daddy be the horse. I need to get pictures of this!

This past Tuesday I was so excited because we got to make gnomes and I am in love. They are adorable and honestly I just want to make one for everybody I know. I am a sucker for anything cute and colorful! My gnome is finished and I'll share a picture later.

Ashley serves a healthy snack for the kids (and us, too) and the children help us with set-up and clean-up. It's a good reminder for me that Suzi is capable of much more than I realize or give her credit for. If you let your two-year-old do something, it probably won't be done perfectly. However, it will give the child a sense of accomplishment and help in skill-building that will be valuable for years to come.

We are sent home with songs and crafts to share and articles for parents to read. I am learning far more than I could from simply reading a stack of books.

Watching Suzi in this environment interacting with other children makes me glad I'm there. I'm not quite ready for her to be out in the world (even a little preschool world) without me. I'm glad to be there to guide her and to experience what she's experiencing. It helps me know her better. Our little "school" has also put homeschooling a preschooler into context for me. Suzi doesn't need a bunch of drilling and forced exercises on letters and counting right now. She needs stories, a good example, meaningful activities, and someone to nurture her creativity and enthusiasm: Me!

One car or two?

Jordan and I have recently been weighing the pros and cons of becoming a one-car family. Right now we have the 2000 Corolla I've been driving since high school (my dad bought it for me) and a 2004 (or 2005?) Honda Odyssey which is the first car Jordan and I ever purchased on our own. We are hoping to pay the van off early, possibly by the end of 2010. Both vehicles are in good condition, but the Corolla is a dark color and we don't have a garage so the paint job has suffered over the years in the blazing sun.

When Jordan and I were both working, it would have been impractical to have only one car; we went off in opposite directions each morning. But now I am staying home with the girls and loving it. I wasn't sure what would happen when I started staying home, but I haven't gone nuts from boredom or loneliness. Since I'd never in my life stayed home as a regular thing, I didn't know how much I like being alone. (Except for the two little girls. You know what I mean.) Anyway, being "stuck" at home all day without a car is not a big issue for me. There are certain days when I do need a car, and on those few days I can drive Jordan to work and then pick him up at the end of the day. No big deal.

There are other things weighing into our decision, though. Here are the pros and cons I've come up with so far...

Pros:
could sell car and pay van off faster
no more taxes and insurance for car
one less car to maintain

Cons:
losing out on gas efficiency of smaller car for Jordan's commute
would have to go through the hassle of selling
if something happened to the van we'd have to rent a vehicle

Right now we are leaning toward keeping the car--at least for now. For a while we were doing a one-car experiment in which we tried to see how long we could leave the Corolla in the driveway. We went a week or so and could have gone longer, but we realized that we were burning up more gas with Jordan driving the van to work. It really is nice to have a fuel efficient vehicle. Also, public transportation around here sucks. We can't even walk out of our neighborhood safely because there are no sidewalks, and there are hills and turns so the people zooming by at fifteen over the limit won't have time to see you before they run you over. There is a bus, but we'd have to be pretty desperate to walk to the bus stop and even if we did we'd never risk taking the girls with us.

So how many cars do you have? Are you happy with your situation? How many cars do you think is best for a family in which one parent stays home?

Minus five

Since resolving to take my Biggest Loser inspiration and run with it about two weeks ago, I have lost five pounds without trying hard. I haven't been running because either the weather has been crappy or (since the time change) the girls have had us up around 5:00 anyway, and I am lazy besides. So I haven't gotten much exercise other than cleaning, which I think ought to count, and activities that aren't technically exercise but cause me to walk and stuff anyway. Breastfeeding also uses up calories, and I think Ivey may be in a growth spurt because she's been nursing more often and longer. The only thing I've had to work on is my desire to eat a ton of carbs and sugary junk. I've been trying to eat things like edamame, quinoa, and almonds for snacks and lunches and I know that has helped.

My done-it list for today:

sorted recycling pile to get it out of the house

at least four loads of laundry

dishes

purged the girls' closet of out-of-season and too-small clothes

Hmm. It seems like I must have done more than that. Ivey was pretty unhappy this morning and I spent a while breastfeeding her. But yay! I am almost caught up from the weekend!

And one more thing about Biggest Loser. I was so mad at Rudy for going back on his word to Shay, and I thought it was terrible that she got sent home after losing 17 pounds! If she lost 17 pounds in a week and that wasn't enough to keep her on the show, they are pushing these people way too hard. The people I like keep getting sent home. It must mean that Amanda is next.

Done-it list

Over the past week, I've realized something. Rather than a list of things to do, I prefer to keep a list of things I've already done. A list of things you still have to do is depressing, especially when you don't finish some of them by the end of the day. I never know what I'll be able to accomplish in a given day, because Suzi and Ivey are my first concern. If they are needy all day, I won't get anything done all day. I can't be a slave to a list.

But making a list of what I've accomplished makes me feel good and sometimes I impress myself. This has turned my idea of getting into a schedule on its head, but it was never a good idea anyway. Some of the things on a schedule don't need to be done once they come around, and sometimes they need to be done sooner. With this new system of making a list after I've done things, I can just look around and see what needs to be done and then do it. Like today I decided to put together Ivey's farm jumperoo. She isn't quite big enough, but she still likes it. Suzi likes it too because it gets Ivey up where she can play with her. She had a good time showing Ivey how all the stuff on the jumperoo works.

The girls have been so cooperative all week! Our house is cleaner than usual. Right now Ivey is napping and Suzi has asked to watch "Bill" (Beauty and the Beast). Ahhh. This is much better than going back to work.

How to keep a toddler busy for at least 30 minutes

1) Give toddler a jar of Nutella that is scraped nearly dry and a spoon
2) Tell child she can have all the chocolate she can get out of the jar
3) Enjoy a cup of coffee while reveling in your cleverness (especially if baby is already napping)


You may end up with something like this to clean up, but it only takes a minute so it's totally worth it.

Keepin it real

The other day I had a friend comment that the same day she'd written a post about some things that had gone awry while caring for her two daughters, I had written a lovey-dovey post about how wonderful being a stay-at-home-mom was. Well, that's because I try to stay positive and remember the good things. I have a tendency to be whiny that I have to fight against. But if you really want to know how a bad day looks, here goes.

I still don't have Ivey's birth certificate and I am freaking out because what if we need it? So while Ivey was sitting in her bouncy seat I went back and tried for the second time to fill out the confusing form. Then I realized I needed a photo ID so I tried to scan and print my driver's license but our printer is SO STUPID and it wouldn't work. I called Jordan at work to see if he had any insight for me. I thought I might have it working, so we hung up but then it still didn't work so I called him back and after he said we could just do it when he got home, I got a little upset because when does that ever happen? A few more things were said, the baby started crying, and I started crying too and told him I couldn't talk right now and I would talk to him later, GOOD-BYE! Suzi was asking me what was wrong, and it really wasn't anything I could explain to her. It was similar to Suzi's infamous fit-pitching, only bigger and I didn't lie in the floor and kick my feet. This is exactly where she gets it. I finally calmed down and nursed the baby, but once Ivey was happy, Suzi had to pee of course. I told her to go by herself and do the best she could, which wasn't too smart, but at least she didn't pee in the floor and I didn't have to get up. There was just a minor mess. So then in walks Jordan. He decided to come home for lunch after I hung up on him, just so he could fix the printer. Well he couldn't fix it either, but he did make me feel a little better and he said he'd get the thing printed and mail it when he got off work. The baby was asleep, so I put on the third movie of the day for Suzi to watch, which I feel terrible about, but I have to do laundry sometime and a movie is about the only way to keep her from waking the baby up. Since then, I have been running around like a crazy person working on our large piles of laundry and straightening up and whispering please don't wake up PLEASE don't wake up every time the baby makes a sound. I just took a short break to write this because I needed to.

Problems: The baby is happy in the wrap but only if I am bouncing her around or walking, and not sitting at the computer or folding laundry, etc. That's when she cries. Plus she is a really light sleeper, like me. Suzi won't pick up her toys unless I yell and lay a guilt trip, so I just pick the toys up myself. We recently put 95% of her toys away because otherwise I just spend all my time picking them up and it never makes a difference. It's like sweeping sand off the beach. Ivey's cry is SO loud. My period (or something like it) came back RIGHT after I hit six weeks postpartum and that is just so unfair because I am breastfeeding exclusively. In fact I have it right now and that's probably half my problem today. My house is a mess and I can't figure out why. I'm trying, but I can't seem to get anything done some days. I want to know how other people make this work so seamlessly.

That's about it. I hope you still like me. I feel like an ungrateful little whiner after writing that.

Now back to laundry.

Little, for a little while

I wrote this on Tuesday the 29th and am just now getting around to posting it.

Today I went to my old workplace to visit my friends and to pick up Ivey's handprint and footprint. It felt strange to walk through that door and see how everything had changed in my absence. The Halloween decorations were up and all the displays were rearranged. Kelly and Vicky buzzed around doing neb setups and answering the phone as I just stood there with a baby in my arms and did nothing. I could've easily picked up the phone and said "thank you for calling AnMed Health Jennie G's, this is Jenny!" It feels weird, but I'm glad that chapter of my life is over.

I would have been back at work today if I hadn't quit. Ivey would have been staying with my mom and dad, and they would've had their hands full. I would have come home to a baby who'd had bottles instead of nursing sessions and had done several cute things while I was gone.

Instead, I took her to visit and when we were tired we went home. She nursed and then had her worst blowout poop ever. Out the diaper, into the pants, down the leg, yuck. She cried while I feebly attempted to undress her without making a mess and was so pleased when I put her in the sink for a warm bath.

Then my parents brought Suzi home (they had taken her to the library). While I was helping her in the bathroom, she told me "you're my best mama." Then she hugged my leg and told me she loved me. She is also telling her first knock-knock jokes... "Knock-knock, who's there? It's me, Suzi!" and "Knock-knock, who's there? It's Tigger, knocking on the door!" She tells the whole joke herself without waiting for a response and none of them make sense.

Even though I do miss my friends, it's not as bad as I thought to go without "adult interaction." It's not so bad having to drink cold coffee or none at all in the morning because I'm either nursing Ivey or running upstairs because Suzi's woken up. Suzi cries and then shouts Maaaamaaaa! at 7:30 and when I run in to tell her good morning, she smiles through the tears and hugs me.

Above are my sweet girls' prints. Suzi's hands and feet haven't been that size in a long time, and Ivey's are getting bigger before our eyes.

I'm glad to have them. I'm glad to be with them. I want more of them.

Six weeks ago

I don't think I've mentioned yet today how much I loooove her blue eyes.

This time six weeks ago, it had been seven hours since Ivey was born, and I was sitting in my bed at home, too excited to sleep. Between pushes I had told Carey and Jordan that once it was all over, I wanted to take a nap first thing, but after I had Ivey in my arms, I didn't want to sleep. I held my baby and held my baby, and then got on Facebook to brag about it a little. She didn't leave my sight, and even over the past six weeks she barely has. I feel completely recovered, and I feel better than I did six weeks after Suzi was born.

I can't believe that six weeks after Suzi's birth I was headed back to work already. It was just wrong. I should've been with my baby. I was a little worried that I'd go nuts staying at home all the time, but it's getting better and better. Recovering at home with two little ones was tough, but now that I'm back to normal I actually love being home to clean and take care of the girls all day! I'm where I'm supposed to be.

I took some pictures holding Ivey in the same place I took my belly shots before.




Also got a picture of the girls together.



Then I changed Ivey into a pretty pink dress and thought I'd take some more, but...

not so much.

We went for a walk today and Suzi picked some flowers. This is Suzi all the time, running around with a handful of flowers, sticks, rocks, or whatever else she can find to play with.

It's been a good six weeks.

All tangled up

Today my friend Megan called and asked if Suzi, Ivey and I wanted to meet her and her son Aiden at the library for storytime. The library is not far at all from our house, and we got there right on time, which was a miracle. Ivey enjoyed hearing the songs and stories while riding in our Storchenwiege wrap, pictured below. I stood in the back and did the Mommy Dance while she looked out the window. Suzi and Aiden listened to the songs and stories and then colored a picture. Then we checked out some books to read.

Pictures taken with a webcam, which is why they are grainy.

I have been trying to figure out a weekly schedule, and I think the library storytime might be the first thing I put on it. It's every Tuesday and Thursday, but you only go to one or the other. Tuesdays are better for us, because by Thursday we're usually scrambling to clean house or get something prepared for the weekend. I am going to use the Yahoo calendar for now to save me from making one myself, and add in the things that happen every week.

And the Storchenwiege wrap... I just love it. When I bought it a few months ago (it was on sale and too good to pass up) I was intimidated by its non-stretchiness, but I knew Julie would help me figure it out, and with a little practice it's now as easy to use as my Moby Wraps. It reminds me of fall leaves. And evidently, it reminds Ivey of how sleepy she is :-) The other day Suzi saw me carrying Ivey in the wrap and, with a concerned look, asked Ivey, "you all tangled up?"

Yay for synchronized napping

Suzi sleeping through the end of The Little Mermaid

Ivey napping in the recliner (I don't leave her unattended)

Just as The Little Mermaid was ending, I looked up from rocking my little girl to sleep to find that my big girl had nodded off as well. What luck! We had a rough morning... Crying, crying, and more crying (I couldn't seem to please Ivey), plus a sinkful of nasty dishes. Now the dishes are done, the girls are bathed, and they are dressed in orange and ready for the game tonight! We are watching it over at my parents' house with some friends.

I am now taking a break and having a little local honey on crackers to try and fix the allergies we have all been enjoying lately. Suzi has had it bad. She hates the feeling of her nose dripping, but equally hates wiping it a million times because it gets sore. She loves her frog humidifier though. Last night she insisted the mist coming out was "fireworks," and then she cranked it up to high until large clouds were billowing down for her to play in. I can't complain because I'm pretty sure I used to do the same thing.

I need to mention, for my own future reference, that caring for a newborn is tough. I think I forgot how hard it was with Suzi, as those sleep-deprived memories faded and were replaced with happier ones when she began to spend more time smiling, laughing, and playing. Ivey cries a lot, though. And her cry isn't a soft girly one like Suzi's was. Ivey's cry is like a siren. We also do not have the benefit of letting her suck to comfort herself. Last time, we gave Suzi a paci and it messed up our breastfeeding relationship with nipple confusion. This time I intended to let Ivey comfort nurse, but my milk supply is a lot heavier and she gets quite aggravated when she just wants to suck and instead keeps getting milk. Then she spits up all over herself and us. I wasn't expecting this; Suzi used to comfort nurse for an hour or more with no problem. It was pretty much all I needed to calm her down. Ivey is a bit harder to please, but usually one of the S's will do it; most often shushing, and if that doesn't work I try swaddling and side-lying coupled with jiggling. She likes the wrap or sling, but wants me (or Jordan) to keep moving when she's in it.

It's a challenge, but then the clouds part and everybody's happy for a minute and I think, this was definitely a great idea.

Best way to get started in the morning

Ivey enjoying a nap in the Moby; this was taken a few days ago

I'm getting the hang of this stay-at-home mom of two thing. This morning I dragged myself out of bed about 30 minutes early. I got a shower and then went downstairs to eat breakfast and drink coffee. I am so much more fun to be around when I'm not hungry and after coffee I am upbeat, even. Knowing that Suzi would be waking up before too long, I got a head start on her breakfast. I put some cheese on a piece of bread and stuck it in the toaster oven and got her some fresh water in her cup. When she woke up, all I had to do was push the button on the toaster and peel her a boiled egg. It only took a minute. Jordan got up a little early too, and he had time to pack himself a sandwich for lunch before leaving for work right on time. Suzi slept late, which gave me even more extra time, so I did laundry. Now she is playing with Play-Doh. This is definitely the best way to begin in the morning!

Pictures of the girls...

Oh no, where is Suzi?!?

There she is! (Don't you just feel sorry for the poor little deprived girl? We should buy her a few more toys, right?)

Ivey and Nana (Jordan's mom) dressed up for gameday